Did I check Facebook recently?
It’s been 30 min
Is anything else posted?
I could use a drink or 2 or 3
Why don’t I have any percocets left
Maybe I should take up cigarettes
No – I don’t like going outside constantly.
Reading – I could read
I really should be cleaning or cooking or running errands or writing or looking for a job….
But – let me just send this text
Check this e-mail
Browse through Twitter
Have I been on LinkedIn recently? Who uses that anyway?
Watch this show and the one after and the one after
Crap – the day is done. Too late for cleaning, for job hunting, for errands
I can write tomorrow
I can pay the bill tomorrow
It all can wait until tomorrow
But can it?
How many tomorrows can it wait?
While I numb out on social media and food and TV….
What are we running away from?
We all do it in some form or another.
Shopping, drinking, smoking, drugs, food, TV, social media…..
What are we trying not to feel?
What are we afraid of trying that we are putting off?
Why is the unknown scarier than enduring the misery in your life now?
We all have different reasons and different ways of numbing out.
Some people keep busy to numb out….Too busy, sorry too busy to really live my life!!
They are all addictions used to keep us from moving forward, from entering into the unknown.
To keep change from happening – like we can really stop change.
And so we get sick and things go wrong
And WHY DOES THIS ALL HAPPEN TO ME!!!!
Because you are resisting
Because you are numbing
Because change is inevitable….
So become aware of where and how you numb
And just watch it
Look at it
Listen to it
Like an observer
And then release it – sometimes all at once but usually slowly
Little by little
Do the thing you fear
Or a step towards it
One little baby step
And another…and another
And suddenly, your WHOLE life is changed!
And it’s awesome!
But then you start to numb again
Because a new change is coming
And once again you are afraid, but it’s okay
You know how to do this now
And this time, it will come faster and with less resistance.
This is life
Live it… Don’t just exist in it.